Originally done by Fleetwood Mac in the 1980's, it was the first song I heard Rick K perform 5 years ago in Knoebels. It was at a time when I was "almost" healed from my badly broken heart. Yeah, it took THAT long for my heart to heal after my last heartbreak. I remember that particular summer, I kept praying and asking God to heal my heart completely. Looking back, I feel there was a "hidden message" in that song that afternoon. Think about it-"yesterday's gone......." Indeed, "yesterday" was most certainly gone. As I sit here this evening thinking about how my plans changed so quickly, I have to keep telling myself, "don't stop thinking about tomorrow"! Yesterday is gone, and while I have some control over this situation, I know God is ultimately in control. I know what I need to do in order to achieve my goal, and in the meantime, I am going to keep my head up and keep a positive attitude over this situation. We all have the ability to choose our attitude over the situations we encounter in life. I have to keep telling myself, I did not fail. I made it into the National Honor Society last year, and I've kept that status since. A's & B's dominated my transcript. I have things to be proud of despite everything I went through. Someone told me not too long ago, I have endured some of the top stressors in life-moving to another state, starting a new career, starting a new school, and having had cancer. I've managed to survive it all, and I became a stronger and better person through it all. Perhaps God saw I was becoming too stressed with this crazy-busy life I lead and decided He needed to give me a break for a little while. I am keeping my hope and faith that He has something AMAZING in store for me!!! I won't stop thinking about tomorrow because yesterday IS gone!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
I've been faced with another setback in pursuit of my Bachelor's degree in Nursing. Everything in life has limits, including financial aid. I obviously don't have the cash right now to pay my tuition, so I've decided to take a year off, save my money, and go back next year. I've been down before. My heart was badly broken 8 years ago. I had cancer just last year. God gave me everything I needed to get through those situations and every other situation in my life. I am not going to let this get me down. I did cry for a minute or two, but instead of throwing a self-pity party, I chose determination over despair. Last year, breast cancer set me back in this goal, but I was determined to finish. I'm still determined to finish. God put this dream in my heart 4 and a half years ago after my first visit here, and He will bring it to pass in His PERFECT timing. If it's not His will for me to finish next year, then I don't want it to happen then. So often we want things when we want them and we become impatient. I believe when God puts dreams in our hearts, He will bring them to pass, which is why I am not giving up on my dream of finding my Prince Charming. I am going to keep my head up high and expect to have a great year off filled with many, many blessings!!! I know God has an awesome plan for my life, and I will praise Him each and every day!!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
As I sit here in my recliner looking out the window, I can see the sun trying to peak through the clouds. There are still raindrops on the window from the massive storm earlier. These images take me back to my most recent Facebook status. "We all have to take a turn under the black cloud and keep in mind that there is sunshine after the rain." How true! We are all going to have bad days. There are times in our lives when we may feel that it seems as though those bad days will never end. I feel it's OK to cry and let it all out, and then pick ourselves up again. I can't complain about my life. I have it good where I'm at. I have an awesome son who is healthy, intelligent, and extremely talented. I have a career I love despite the craziness that comes along with it. I am coming up on one year cancer-free this week. I have things to look forward to this month. I'm getting ready to participate in one of the biggest events in breast cancer research. Life will never be perfect. Not everyone is going to like us. There are going to be people who no matter how kind you are to them, they just won't be as kind to you as you are to them. We're going to get a flat tire at least once in our lives. Things like this happen to everyone. Is it frustrating? YES. Will it last forever? NO. We are told to praise God in times of trouble. Some may ask why should we do this? We have to look at our inconveniences as blessings in disguise. God may use these inconveniences to protect us from something worse. I have to admit, having wrote my feelings down, I feel better. God will take care of me. I am very blessed despite those horrible days at work and the little inconveniences.